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[Billy releases a hushed gasp and arches his body just a little more, trying not to choke Teddy accidentally but unable to entirely help himself. He supports himself on his knees and reaches his free hand back to cover Teddy's, encouraging that motion. At the same time, he taps the half-open bottle of lube between two of Teddy's fingers, a silent offering, if Teddy wants to take advantage of the position. Two fingers are better than one, after all.]

[Teddy does have to move back a bit and cough one or two times, but it's nothing his shifting can't handle. Soon enough, he's keeping his mouth busy again, but he's at least aware enough to understand what Billy's trying to tell him, and...

Oh good god yes. Teddy reaches his other hand around to grab the lube, momentarily pulling his fingers way to coat them up with lube as well. He's not as... experienced with this as Billy is, and he's not watching what he's doing, so he ends up dribbling some of it onto the bed. Whatever, doesn't matter, they can clean it later or something.

Once his fingers have been rubbed together and warmed up a bit (something he'd seen Billy do, so it must be important), Teddy brings his fingers back to Billy's entrance and, when his boyfriend gives enough of an understandable cue, presses one of his own fingers in.

Holy shit. Holy shit, he's actually getting to do this to - with his boyfriend.]

[Billy murmurs an apology for the brief discomfort, and it very swiftly turns into gasping sounds of gratitude; it's tight with Teddy's finger joining is own, but he knows that's how it should be, and he's fairly sure that Teddy can reach better than him. More lube means a better fit, which means he'll be ready that much sooner for when they do this for real.

His eyes close, finger moving in tandem with Teddy's, and he sets free a low moan, openly and unmuffled, the way he used to in their apartment. It feels- it feels amazing. Memories just don't cut it, not for this.]

[Teddy is able to reach deeper than Billy, and while he could go even deeper through shifting, there's still that hesitation of his, his worry that it'd only freak his boyfriend out. So he stays the way he is, follows Billy's movements and tries to angle it in a way that makes it good.

That moan he heard stirs in the deepest parts of him, and he lets out an echo of it, the vibrations cause more pleasant sensations in Billy's erection. With that in mind, he pulls his other hand back, still lubed up, to stroke at the spots he can't reach, slicking it up further.

It's starting to get to the point where Teddy can't wait to get on to... something more, something much more than this, and his toes curl in the sheets in anticipation. At the same time, he doesn't want to rush this; he wants this to be the best afternoon possible for the both of them.]

[It isn't long before Billy feels ready, both front and back; he's aware of the latter a scant second or two before the former, and he chokes out a gasp and reaches his free hand down to press on Teddy's forehead, trying to urge him off.]

W-wait, wait, stop, it's too much-

[The last thing he wants to do is finish too soon and make a mess of things. Figuratively and literally.

I want to do it with you...

Shivering and regaining his senses a little, he withdraws his fingers, biting his lip at the loss of pressure. He'll be full again soon enough.]

'm gonna... need you to lie back, okay?

[Teddy had pulled back just a second after Billy pushed at his forehead, in a way that seems worried and a bit panicked, an apology on his lips as he'd thought he did something wrong - though Billy ended up reassuring him that it was just too much, not that he... didn't like it or wanted to stop or anything. That's... good, and very relieving. Maybe he's not so bad at this after all?

He withdraws his finger when Billy does, and he's just about to pull himself up and press kisses against his boyfriend's torso when - oh. Oh, this is the part when... At least, he thinks it is? When they actually... get started?]

Um... yeah, okay. I'm totally lying back. Doing that now.

[And he does, and he's nervous, so nervous, but also excited at the same time. With his head against the pillow, Teddy lifts his hands to brush his fingers against Billy's thighs and hips, looking up at him with desire and anticipation and so much love in his eyes.]

So... What do I do now?

[God... seeing Teddy look at him like that is kind of intimidating, actually. Last time they'd both been inexperienced, clumsy, laughing through their uncertainty together. Here, Teddy's relying on him for what to do, how to make this good. And he does know, sure, but... well, he'll be grateful when they both remember how this dance goes. He hates that their partnership has this weird imbalance again.

Just teach him how, already.

With a smile he hopes will reassure any nerves that may be lingering, he crawls up Teddy's body and straddles his knees, just below the erection waiting for him, and reaches out to retrieve the condom and the rest of the lube. Gently, he tears open the package, positioning the condom on the tip.]

Watch and learn, I guess.

[It sounds a little cocky, but that's his role for the moment. Before they can do this together, he has to get Teddy through the first few steps.

He slowly rolls the condom down, then follows with the lube, smearing it generously over the surface. He knows better than to be stingy about it.]

Did they ever make you roll one of these down a banana at school? That was the weirdest class.

[It is nerve-wracking, and he can't help feeling like Billy's judging him somehow. What if the other guy knew exactly what to do? What if Billy's expecting more, or just... doesn't like how it's going thanks to how Teddy's so inexperienced at this? All those thoughts make his erection start to die a little, though it rises again once Billy gets his hands on it, sliding on the condom and lubing it up generously. Teddy can't help shutting his eyes and letting out a pleased sigh at the sensation, though he knows it'll get so much better later on.

You know, if he doesn't get too fed up with you.

Let's not listen to that little deprecating voice in his head.]

Ha... no. We got the abstinence course in mine. [He holds up his hands to gesture:] Having sex will ruin your life! [And when he lowers his hands again, he sets free a nervous little laugh.] I mean. I did some research just in case? But other than that, uh... Nope. No banana thing.

Hah... you missed out. It was pretty funny.

[Billy grins, finishing up and grabbing a tissue from the bedside table to get the leftover goop off his fingers before sliding further up Teddy's body, getting into position.]

So, then... you ready to ruin your life?

[It's a two-fold question- on one hand, he wants to tease, to make this fun, to have fun, because that's the whole point of this. To enjoy it. But on the other hand- are you really okay? Either he's sensing Teddy's concerns or he's assuming they're still there - because it's Teddy, so of course he's overthinking it - but he can't go ahead with it unless he has permission.

It's not too late, I can still stop. Please don't let this be bad for you. Don't let me make it bad.]

[At first, Teddy's sight is down at Billy's hips, knowing that all he has to do is lower them and... nngh. Knowing what's going to happen makes him lick his lips, anticipating it all the more.

But when he looks up at him upon hearing that question and sees that look on his face...

Teddy doesn't like to admit when he can't read Billy as well as he used to, with his boyfriend suddenly seeming a lot more confident in their relationship, much more receptive towards affection, and never shy or embarrassed about a lot of things. But... this time, he thinks he gets the meaning there. He does, and it touches him to think that Billy's thinking of him before going on with it. It's reassuring, knowing that he's looking out for consent on both sides.

So, Teddy does the same. He reaches up his hands to hold Billy's face, and he smiles in a way that's still part nerves, but still all love. (And, okay, a lot of lust, too.)]

Depends. Ready to ruin your life?

[It's two-fold on his end, too, though he's not sure if he should clarify or not. He wants to make it fun too, fun and amazing, everything that a first time should be. But...

Are you sure you still want to do this? With me? I want to, I love you so much, but if I'm not the one for you here...]

Mmm... I think so, yeah.

[Despite the words, Billy's voice was certain and unwavering, not an ounce of doubt. If Teddy was sure he wanted to go ahead with this, then he had no reason for discomfort, either. They could do this. They are doing this.

He turns his head just enough to press a light kiss to Teddy's palm, smiling again, and reaches down between their bodies to align them properly. Then, with a deep breath, he sank himself down on Teddy's erection.

....Oh god. Oh god, there it is...]

[Teddy returns that smile, feeling his own nerves start to dissipate, and then - then he feels Billy move, and he has to look down to see it happen, he just has to.

And as Billy sinks down, as Teddy feels his erection press up into him and start to be surrounded by him...

Oh god. Oh god, Teddy didn't expect it to feel this good. He lowers his hands to Billy's hips, to give him some kind of support, some leverage, god he doesn't even know, something. He didn't even realize he was holding his breath until Billy stops, and he lets it out in a long, pleased sigh, eyes closing to take in the sensations that caused.

This was... it was already incredible. Jesus, this was...]

Oh, god...

[It's somewhat difficult to reconcile what Billy feels versus what he remembers. To this body, in this time, it's new and different and a little painful; he'd moved too fast, so as soon as he's got Teddy buried to the hilt he stops, hands pressed against Teddy's chest, breathing deeply. He reminds himself, relax, relax, because inwardly he knows that's all he needs. It's not like experience had made him loose before, just. More comfortable with it. He needs to find that mental state again.

Maybe stretch some more. It's... intense.

It's distracting, but he can't quite help cracking an eye open to get a glimpse of Teddy's face. The expression he finds is just about the best thing ever. He's always liked watching Teddy when they do this, seeing his face and the colour in his eyes change the further they took it. He's pretty sure it's the most open Teddy ever gets- when he can't entirely control his shifting, when he lets it all out. It's a thrill to know that he can do that with something so simple, so primal. And it's pretty damned arousing, too.

He exhales with a faint, breathless laugh, closing his eyes again and focusing back on what he'd been trying to do- adjust to the sudden, delightfully invasive thickness inside him.]

Sh... shit, Teddy... you feel... really good...

[It's a little hard to speak, but he wants to make sure Teddy knows that it's not bad. That he's him who feels good, not that mysterious other partner he's probably wondering about, not anybody else. And it'll only get better from here.]

Ha... you think so?

[It's an honest question, born from Teddy's ever present insecurities. It feels so incredible that he hadn't even thought to ask, and now it's probably too late, if he needs to be bigger or smaller, if Billy wanted something else. But he just said it feels really good, and he even cursed, something he's never heard his boyfriend do before, so maybe he doesn't have to at all, and -

Oh god, Teddy wants to move. He really, really wants to move, or for Billy to move his hips, something to get some friction going around his erection. He feels his fingers curl in the sheets below him to resist that urge; there's a reason why Billy isn't moving yet, after all. He needs to adjust, and to go at it right away would be bad for the both of them. At least, that's what he can hazily remember from the research he'd done.

So, rather than keep his fists in the sheets, he relaxes his hands enough to lift them up and run over Billy's legs and thighs, hips and back, whatever he feels is tense and needs to relax enough into this. He does find that his toes are curling into the sheets instead, but whatever, he can handle that.]

Feel like I should wash your mouth out... go after it with some soap...

[There's a moment of bleary-eyed confusion - because wait, what? He's cussed plenty in bed - when his brain realigns itself and he remembers, oh yeah, Teddy hasn't heard that before. His cheeks redden a little and he smiles it off, shoulders lifting in a shrug.]

I've had dirtier things go in and out of my mouth lately, you know.

[Just today, as a matter of fact.

He knows Teddy must be aching to move- that's pretty much how it went the first time. And while he's not willing to cause any extra aches to hurry things along (Teddy would get mad about it anyway) there's still a few things he can do. First, he lowers his hands to press them against Teddy's, gently holding his wrists for support. Next, he spreads his legs a bit more and arches his back, giving Teddy a nice view.

Finally, after taking a deep breath, he rocks his body very slightly back and forth, offering a taste of what's to come. It isn't much, but it's a pleasant friction that makes him shiver with anticipation, and he's certain Teddy will like it, too.]

[Oh, he certainly does like it. They haven't even started moving yet, and it's already feeling great. It's a preview, he knows it, and he can't wait for more, for the real thing, for things to really get moving once Billy's more used to it.

He lids his eyes, but the color's still obvious, how they seem a little darker, a little more grey, like a hazy storm in his eyes. Not like he knows it's happening; no one's pointed it out to him before. And he ends up letting out a small huff of a laugh and a moan, wanting so badly to run his hands along Billy's torso because god, seeing it on display like that...]

You're so... so hot, you know that? God, look at you...

[He loves those eyes; he could watch them shift for hours, like seeing the tide of the ocean roll in and out, or the shifting lights in the sky as a storm comes in. You don't usually see sky like that in New York, but he remembers it well from Luceti. It's kind of nostalgic, actually.

He keeps shifting his body gently, building up the motion carefully and gauging his body's response to it, hoping to continue those colour shifts as long as he can. He'd gotten Teddy pretty damned dark back in Luceti. How far can he go this time...?]

I'm not... mm... looking at me y'know... my view's great...

[Teddy might have replied with something dismissive, not wanting to focus on his own body so much. He's never really thought his body was anything great, after all. But god, he just doesn't care right now. He and Billy are actually having sex for the first time, and while it might not be so special to his boyfriend, to Teddy... it's like their intimacy's taken a whole new level. They're not just boyfriends anymore, right? They're something more.

Doing his best to ignore that urge to just thrust his hips up with wild abandon, Teddy instead bites his lip and turns his hands enough to entwine his fingers with Billy's, giving him extra support. Sure, they both look great, okay. That's not the most important part for Teddy.]

I love you. [He shuts his eyes and gives Billy's hands a gentle squeeze, legs bending and straightening out again behind him to try to ease off the urge to just move.] I love you.

Mmm... I know. I love you too, T... I really do.

[You're lucky he can't hear those thoughts, Teddy, or you'd be in trouble. Not that Billy could really say why this experience is plenty special to him, too. But still. The love he's feeling for Teddy goes well beyond an early-relationship infatuation, and even if Teddy's not quite there yet, hearing those words from him is still breathtaking.

It's a delight to watch the pleasure his own experience is bringing to the table, too, and the affection Teddy is showing him in turn is enough to encourage him to take it further. Taking a deep breath, he shifts just a bit harder to get a feel for it, and then he finally spreads his knees on the bed and lifts himself off, taking Teddy right back to the tip, fingers clenching around his partner's for extra support.]

Ready?

[He doesn't wait. He knows Teddy's ready, waiting- can feel the tension in his body and the hardness between his legs. With a heavy exhale he drops himself back down again, thrusting Teddy's erection back inside. Oh god, was he ever ready for that.]

[With Billy's hands and in his own, Teddy nods to that question - it's all he can do, all he has time to do, before Billy lowers his hips and - and - ]

Oh. Oh my god - [Teddy has to burst into small, helpless laughter at that, because holy shit that felt amazing. Oral is good and great, but this? No wonder sex is everywhere; he already never wants this feeling to stop.

He looks up at Billy then, and for a second, his eyes are a lighter blue. Then they started to get darker again as he grips Billy's hands and pushes his hips upward, as if to encourage him to keep going.]

That's - um. Really good. Really.

[Billy laughs with Teddy, a breathless noise somewhat strained with effort as he builds up to a rhythm, the movement of his knees working to match that of Teddy's hips. He'd seen a flash just then, something in Teddy's eyes, but he can't be sure of what he saw in the light. He's a bit distracted, admittedly.

Still, he's watching for more.]

I- mm... I did kind of tell you.

[He sounds pretty damned pleased to be right.]

Try- what you're doing, try it again... harder. It helps...

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