[Standing tall and sturdy... If she knew that's how she appears to him, she would laugh. The only reason she keeps walking is that if she stops, she knows she won't start again. And if she keeps going, as cruel as it sounds, she knows he'll follow no matter what.
Seeing him like this, in so much pain, makes her stomach churn. Kaname doesn't turn around when he joins her again, she can't. Maybe he sees her as a pillar of stability, someone to follow, or whatever, but no matter what it is, she knows it's wrong. The only thing she is, she thinks, is selfish. Facing him right now might break her, especially since there's nothing she can do for him. She clenches her jaw so hard it hurts.
Up ahead, the trees break slightly, giving way to their new lodgings. It's still a walk, but they can see it. A new wave washes over her, and she's struck by some unfound energy to keep going.]
Messer, look.
[It's all she needs to say. Her steps are extra forceful in an attempt to cross the space quicker. Again, she uses her selfishness, knowing he'll do his best to match her. A small part of her hates herself for that, but it needs to be done. The longer they spend out here, the likelier it is he'll collapse. The trek is somehow the longest and shortest of their journey.
They make it to the base of the house. Her eyes narrow at the winding stairs before them. Kaname takes a breath then turns to face Messer. His condition feels like a punch to the stomach, but she keeps herself calm, moving beside him and ducking under his right arm. Somehow, despite their loads, she manages to settle some of his weight on to herself.]
Come on, we're almost there. [Her left arm, around his torso, squeezes him lightly in a show of support. She knows he can do this.]
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Seeing him like this, in so much pain, makes her stomach churn. Kaname doesn't turn around when he joins her again, she can't. Maybe he sees her as a pillar of stability, someone to follow, or whatever, but no matter what it is, she knows it's wrong. The only thing she is, she thinks, is selfish. Facing him right now might break her, especially since there's nothing she can do for him. She clenches her jaw so hard it hurts.
Up ahead, the trees break slightly, giving way to their new lodgings. It's still a walk, but they can see it. A new wave washes over her, and she's struck by some unfound energy to keep going.]
Messer, look.
[It's all she needs to say. Her steps are extra forceful in an attempt to cross the space quicker. Again, she uses her selfishness, knowing he'll do his best to match her. A small part of her hates herself for that, but it needs to be done. The longer they spend out here, the likelier it is he'll collapse. The trek is somehow the longest and shortest of their journey.
They make it to the base of the house. Her eyes narrow at the winding stairs before them. Kaname takes a breath then turns to face Messer. His condition feels like a punch to the stomach, but she keeps herself calm, moving beside him and ducking under his right arm. Somehow, despite their loads, she manages to settle some of his weight on to herself.]
Come on, we're almost there. [Her left arm, around his torso, squeezes him lightly in a show of support. She knows he can do this.]